chomping at the bit to feel negated. is it worth it?
your eyes seem dead and that worries me about the state of your inner thoughts
lets heal this primordial problem by talking about how i'm so not free!
mirror mirror, this man is broken
spreadsheets on timeliness to social engagements or are you fitting in well enough or have you canceled plans to find deeper truths
the babies are leaving the nest and the babies suck essential living forces out of the fabric of the universe
hopefully
the most nuanced feeling
witnessing the first steps into mania
the most disparate and awkward
the most fine and telling
the most familar
by those you care most about
receiving malice in its utterance
by those who will not witness it
but continue to seek a gilded glory
all too familar
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language is not enough to communicate with ancient/present spirit. ideologies crystalize the language, furthering distance from spirit. validation crystalizes an ideology, further still from spirit.
we construct our own negation. we facilitate our alienation. we withhold our own answers. to gain standing, we obscure the solution with our own egotistical failings, pushing them to become collective burdens others must tend to.
we do this because we have failed to become a collection of individuals capable of overcoming spiritual birth pains in solidarity and are instead becoming a collection of validated ideologies -- spiritually devoid, feeble, death-centric.
do not long for emptiness in others because you cannot fill your own vessel
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maintain authenticity without becoming so utterly false in action and image
there is no reason not to let it go
the only reason is a lack of understanding in how to incorporate it with your current experience
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there is a reason to let it go
the reason is understanding how to incorporate it with your current experience
you take it too far
you build a web for yourself
you think you are in the right
you think you will always be right
you accept you are wrong and know yourself to be right in doing so
you have to stop
you have already been there so many times
you know what to do
and if you don't
you better
(the opinions shared here do not reflect)
the end of the world is such a tantalizing subject because i know the end is the beginning
overexcited people with absolutes in their newsfeeds so afraid to touch sorrow
guardians measured in months
becoming conscious is remembering through time -through generations of being that manifested so that you are who you are in this precise moment
the longer you go the more you remember- the choice comes from how to remember most truthfully.
the past never changes, but our perception of it does.
this has happened before
I just had a dream I met jordan peterson. he was cold and distant towards me, despite my knowing that if I actually met him, it would be at least neutral and at most engaging. i was watching his latest lecture on the psychological significance of the bible as I took a nap and had the dream. he was talking about noah and the flood.
last night i had another dream where i met someone from woke reality from my past who had been very distant and cold towards me more often than not, but in the dream we were very close and it felt real and warm and it was my birthday and I lived with a demented middle american family. I was being saved by this person who never actually did so. it was the manifestation of my idealized version of reality. it was interesting.
last night before i went to bed I was a little drunk and took a melatonin and told myself, "i want to dream"
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no matter how many forms used, if the source of the product isn't fully investigated, the buildings will fall. the gold will crumble when adhered to dirt. the structure must withstand all and be made of nothing before it is moved into.
the truth of your lineage is manifest in who you are
consistently use new forms for the only content
be here now
the energy from unknown encounters, reminiscent of past experiences, is new.
the peace of being who you are in a mutual moment is right.
view your entrance in
to all situations that happen
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no one wants to actually know it
the numbering of the days is arbitrary.
the most free is true and universal
birds chirping. I dislike cool people most of the time. a loss of information for the sake of manipulation. generalizing
fell asleep to kate bush and woke up to kate bush. had vivd dreams, dark but adventurous, playful and exciting, like an indiana jones/into the void mash-up about a person consistently running away from me and towards me simultaneously.
the power of the unconscious to bring itself into consciousness without our control should never be taken for granted. certain people have a way of bringing this out in others, their mark permanent even if they are long gone. when you encounter people that do this, understand that they are either your greatest ally or worst enemy. its important to know which one because that decision will determine who you become. we must also be aware that we are potentially doing this to others at any point through the actions we take, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant. beauty can be found in this, deeper than any other, but so can real evil...
in cases of significant social and emotional trauma, the key to overcoming the pain of those memories is to talk through them entirely with all involved. otherwise you create a self-made image of the situation that is not grounded in actual reality. you then have the potential to bring those traumas back to the surface at any moment. if you are not fully informed you may not understand that you are even doing it or think that you have overcome it through sheer will... worse yet, this opens you up to be manipulated or act as a manipulator of core emotional constructs.