the numbering is arbitrary.
getting the idea through that psychic energy is real and can be used for despairing purposes is an important one to consider. most people only think of, or wish to think of, the free light emanating from the ideal in their heads, no matter how ignorant or dangerous that may be. feel real psychic pain, real chaos, and meet it. there is no overcoming, and that is real. until you die, which is liberation, but in no way negates the chaos. the chaos is necessary for freedom, because it eats you and you become something else, and that something else is freedom.