the most nuanced feeling
witnessing the first steps into mania
the most disparate and awkward
the most fine and telling
the most familar
by those you care most about
receiving malice in its utterance
by those who will not witness it
but continue to seek a gilded glory
all too familar
language is not enough to communicate with ancient/present spirit. ideologies crystalize the language, furthering distance from spirit. validation crystalizes an ideology, further still from spirit.
we construct our own negation. we facilitate our alienation. we withhold our own answers. to gain standing, we obscure the solution with our own egotistical failings, pushing them to become collective burdens others must tend to.
we do this because we have failed to become a collection of individuals capable of overcoming spiritual birth pains in solidarity and are instead becoming a collection of validated ideologies -- spiritually devoid, feeble, death-centric.
do not long for emptiness in others because you cannot fill your own vessel