day 23

your power game, power trip, power play will expose you to your worst weaknesses and you will not be okay 

consciously hiding, fear based 

be happy others are happy. but know when they are mistaken

faith based choice, there are no enemies 

but there are wrong ways of living that cause harm

 

and you are doing that

its not my job to save you, its my job to test you, because you have it 

inverse/mirror/

 

opposites attract and feel the same things through polar twin guardians

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those that challenge you should not be ran from. how can no one understand this? because of weakness/selfishness/ego-stroking/dead-eye worship

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once you build up your fort of social comfort, take out the foundation at the knees so you can find out what it means to die because you are so afraid of yourself and being alone. welcome to the mothership. its a gas chamber. 

stay or go inside. i'll stay. i've been there,. through solitude, the truth will manifest naturally and it will be clear. faith. 

day 22

chomping at the bit to feel negated. is it worth it?  

 

your eyes seem dead and that worries me about the state of your inner thoughts  

 

lets heal this primordial problem by talking about how i'm so not free! 

 

mirror mirror, this man is broken

 

spreadsheets on timeliness to social engagements or are you fitting in well enough or have you canceled plans to find deeper truths  

 

the babies are leaving the nest and the babies suck essential living forces out of the fabric of the universe  

 

hopefully  

 

 

day 21

the most nuanced feeling

witnessing the first steps into mania  

the most disparate and awkward 

the most fine and telling

the most familar 

by those you care most about

receiving malice in its utterance  

by those who will not witness it

but continue to seek a gilded glory

 

all too familar

 

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language is not enough to communicate with ancient/present spirit. ideologies crystalize the language, furthering distance from spirit. validation crystalizes an ideology, further still from spirit. 

 

we construct our own negation. we facilitate our alienation. we withhold our own answers. to gain standing, we obscure the solution with our own egotistical failings, pushing them to become collective burdens others must tend to. 

 

we do this because we have failed to become a collection of individuals capable of overcoming spiritual birth  pains in solidarity and are instead becoming a collection of validated ideologies -- spiritually devoid, feeble, death-centric. 

 

do not long for emptiness in others because you cannot fill your own vessel

 

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day 20

maintain authenticity without becoming so utterly false in action and image. r e g r e s s i o n m a s t u r b a t i o n 

 

wish fullfillment/convienent people/empty theory/fictional idealism/ no progress 

 

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day 19

there is no reason not to let it go 

the only reason is a lack of understanding in how to incorporate it with your current experience 

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there is a reason to let it go

the reason is understanding how to incorporate it with your current experience 

day 18

you take it too far

you build a web for yourself 

you think you are in the right 

you think you will always be right 

you accept you are wrong and know yourself to be right in doing so

you have to stop 

you have already been there so many times

you know what to do 

and if you don't

you better

 

(the opinions shared here do not reflect)

day 17

the end of the world is such a tantalizing subject because i know the end is the beginning

 

overexcited people with absolutes in their newsfeeds so afraid to touch sorrow 

day 15

becoming conscious is remembering through time -through generations of being that manifested so that you are who you are in this precise moment 

the longer you go the more you remember- the choice comes from how to remember most truthfully.

 

the past never changes, but our perception of it does. 

 

this has happened before

day 14

Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.

 

I just had a dream I met jordan peterson. he was cold and distant towards me, despite my knowing that if I actually met him, it would be at least neutral and at most engaging. i was watching his latest lecture on the psychological significance of the bible as I took a nap and had the dream. he was talking about noah and the flood.

last night i had another dream where i met someone from woke reality from my past who had been very distant and cold towards me more often than not, but in the dream we were very close and it felt real and warm and it was my birthday and I lived with a demented middle american family. I was being saved by this person who never actually did so. it was the manifestation of my idealized version of reality. it was interesting.

last night before i went to bed I was a little drunk and took a melatonin and told myself, "i want to dream"

day 13

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day 12

no matter how many forms used, if the source of the product isn't fully investigated, the buildings will fall. the gold will crumble when adhered to dirt. the structure must withstand all and be made of nothing before it is moved into. 

day 8

the energy from unknown encounters, reminiscent of past experiences, is new.

the peace of being who you are in a mutual moment is right.

day 7

view your entrance in

to all situations that happen

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no one wants to actually know it

day 6

the numbering is arbitrary. 

getting the idea through that psychic energy is real and can be used for despairing purposes is an important one to consider. most people only think of, or wish to think of, the free light emanating from the ideal in their heads, no matter how ignorant or dangerous that may be. feel real psychic pain, real chaos, and meet it. there is no overcoming, and that is real. until you die, which is liberation, but in no way negates the chaos. the chaos is necessary for freedom, because it eats you and you become something else, and that something else is freedom. 

day 4

birds chirping. I dislike cool people most of the time. a loss of information for the sake of manipulation. generalizing