hard work that is not enjoyable is important
day 59
being bombarded by other people’s expressions is not good if you are sensitive to it
day 58
mundane novelty is the new cool thing on the precipice of the young, hip human art experience
day 57
self-obsession is not good.
self-understanding is okay
day 56
most people lie to appear like something they are truly not- that deeper something. internalized, and wretched.
our culture of image worshipping has gone beyond women/men trying to live up to impossible beach body magazine standards- now everyone with a phone and an internet connection can be famous beyond their means, take out loans for their soul.
it warms me to find people avoiding this, or actively sharing their truth sans “identity” to hopefully jolt some of these people out of their hopelessness and back to reality.
ive struggled with this personally for a long time
day 55
ketogenic dieting is changing my physiological/psychosomatic experience of reality in an incredibly beneficial way.
millions of years are inside of us
wild is wisdom. reason. purpose. destination
day 54
dreamt of the numbers 18 and 24
the internet is both the canary and the coal mine
the unconscious dwells in the psychosomatic and the physiological realms.
you never know what it is causing you pain until you work honestly to uncover truth.
day 53
dreams are so powerful
day 52
electric boogaloo
video games
painting
cigarettes
lying in bed
kombucha
ned
gaby
uncle
bagels
work
laundry
juice
tv
attention
free will
signs
family
car
house
machines
hummus
candy
friendship
hdmi cables
rose water
cbd oil
ecosphere
beer
contacts
ace hardware
exodus
helium
succulents
toilet paper
washing machine
girls “father, son, holy spirit”
kennel tray
water
vaccuum cleaner
bug spray
pain
avocado
”eighth grade”
bbq
rings
apartment
yarn
crossbow
stem cells
virtual reality
”the witness”
gangaji
wildfires
quantum nonlocality
faith
reality is an app for you to download and learn things with
sync 1
watching “first reformed”. i began doing sit-ups because my body was feeling painful. i did a few and felt a slight, but noticeable, improvement in my clarity of perception and overall well-being. my mind began thinking that i should eat better and exercize more.
just after I thought this, near the 1 hour mark of the film, ethan hawke’s character says in a bit of narration “it’s amazing the simple, curative power of exercise. it’s god given.”
day 51
casual void
quantum non locality is happening and is real, it’s tied to our consciousness as it rides the edge of our understanding.
things happen that can mold this phenomenon into profound synchronicities we experience, insightful dreams, and gut feelings or intuition.
love is directly tied to it and it reveals the truth beyond surface tension .
belief in such things can only be attributed to “being” in the right place at the right time.
i used to be obsessed with such things, in a dangerous and harmful way, and I just understood why (again).
day 50
the ever consuming shadow is the image
the all encompassing light is being
from the top!
day 49
the massive sensation of the rest of your life
day 48
feeling immense freedom
day 47
welcome your pain
day 46
accept your pain
day 45
it manifests so beautifully
the litmus
this happening can occur through separate methods. considering all of them is worthwhile
day 44
currently feeling ethereal and like what will happen next is going to be extremely chaotic
day 43
something bigger than ourselves is guiding us, but we are all also that thing.
day 42
just had a dream that i turned bruce springsteen into an iguana at a house party and struggled very much to contain him because he was strong. at one point he was roaming a dog park, and i was feeling nervous about it. eventually, i had to call the cops because it was too much for me to handle.