who cares if you are wrong, just overwhelm people with your ignorance

read and understand history, deeply.

gain unbiased understanding of multiple intentions and deep reflection into your own.

what fills a vacuum? and why?

if a graph, simple jab, or other obvious mundane propaganda feels sharp or good to share without deep insight, or you feel you have a firm, deeply rooted sense of moral agency over others, you are likely unaware of the chasm of ideological possession you have fallen in and should seek help from deeper teachers or fully embrace your fate as a nameless, empty solider in the battle for false superiority. you have become an echo of the future strife your unconscious desperately is wishing to fulfill due to an inability to grapple with the complexity of modern alienation in a peaceful or meaningful manner.

you likely care a lot about how you look or are perceived.

the devil does best

as victims of other

killing each other’s selves

unbinding breath for the first time

since the past time

hearts beating slowly with their first step

into this wilderness

please god stop the all consuming, app driven, late stage capitalistic, insanely self worshiping, predatory advertisement infected, tower of mufukin babble.

shits bad

people physiologically enraptured by a broken system will not be okay when the system fails entirely.

the cognitive dissonance formed from not talking about how things are wrong.

the unnecessary fear…

private void update() {

if (currently capable) {

strive to shine through or harness the chaotic potential of your moment in order to contribute to something meaningful

}

else {

become currently capable()

}

}

public void become currently capable() {

live with love in the opposite of a false manner

don’t give in to exploitation

currently capable = true

}

despair is also in the body. and it must be healed with proper food, exercise, and a kind, honest outlook that doesn’t turn healing into an ego trip.

it facilitates the action toward the best life, it’s deathly important.

my lack of ability to focus on any one thing is a despairing characteristic. my connection with creative endeavors feels forced or selfish or empty, and it’s possible this is because i have become rooted for too long in a cynical view. it’s also rooted in an adhd response triggered from a deeply traumatic childhood and young adult experience.

the solution to this is not to simply not be cynical, because i do truly believe objectively that the world is broken and worth criticizing (general social relations and honest communication is bad among countries and different groups and the spread of hedonistic, selfish impulses masquerading as freedom instead of symptoms of deeper enslavement is also bad)

the solution has always been, and will always remain, to confront that and attempt to offer methods of action through it in veiled, mostly symbolic or cryptic, gestures that hopefully don’t devalue the life of another.

i simply can’t focus because of personal trauma and the difficulty of getting through that in my life. i work very hard to subvert this and also find that guiding spark of inspiration.

i truly believe that the video game i am working on will be the thing that frees me from this despair. but it will take a few years to complete properly.