remember
you have bones
and move them
day 32
it’s for no one
it’s for you
it’s for everyone
rock bottom might not exist until you perceive a bottom.
day 31
day 30
so many cycles
so many cycles
it can be
hidden and not your time
day 29
sacrifice is the spice of life
day 28
promoting space and getting dirty all the time
integrate shadow
what depths we will gooooooooooo!
day 27
day 26
profound meaninglessness as a result of making sure your face looks a certain way.
devolution of the general population, slow and soft and easy
heightened emphasis on bodily performance, destruction of wisdom
fires blazing sound the alarm
hits on the radio sound the alarm
no discernment as a result of postmodern idealist failings
no reason, no nature, only power
no grace, no beauty, only theatrics
individual self discovery, uncharted waters yet again and forever
masks
day 25
really deep unconscious things
day 24
seeds of a witch hunt
day 23
faith based choice, there are no enemies
but there are wrong ways of living that cause harm
day 22
chomping at the bit to feel negated. is it worth it?
your eyes seem dead and that worries me about the state of your inner thoughts
lets heal this primordial problem by talking about how i'm so not free!
mirror mirror, this man is broken
spreadsheets on timeliness to social engagements or are you fitting in well enough or have you canceled plans to find deeper truths
the babies are leaving the nest and the babies suck essential living forces out of the fabric of the universe
hopefully
day 21
the most nuanced feeling
witnessing the first steps into mania
the most disparate and awkward
the most fine and telling
the most familar
by those you care most about
receiving malice in its utterance
by those who will not witness it
but continue to seek a gilded glory
all too familar
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language is not enough to communicate with ancient/present spirit. ideologies crystalize the language, furthering distance from spirit. validation crystalizes an ideology, further still from spirit.
we construct our own negation. we facilitate our alienation. we withhold our own answers. to gain standing, we obscure the solution with our own egotistical failings, pushing them to become collective burdens others must tend to.
we do this because we have failed to become a collection of individuals capable of overcoming spiritual birth pains in solidarity and are instead becoming a collection of validated ideologies -- spiritually devoid, feeble, death-centric.
do not long for emptiness in others because you cannot fill your own vessel
😉
day 20
maintain authenticity without becoming so utterly false in action and image
day 19
there is no reason not to let it go
the only reason is a lack of understanding in how to incorporate it with your current experience
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there is a reason to let it go
the reason is understanding how to incorporate it with your current experience
day 18
you take it too far
you build a web for yourself
you think you are in the right
you think you will always be right
you accept you are wrong and know yourself to be right in doing so
you have to stop
you have already been there so many times
you know what to do
and if you don't
you better
(the opinions shared here do not reflect)
day 17
the end of the world is such a tantalizing subject because i know the end is the beginning
overexcited people with absolutes in their newsfeeds so afraid to touch sorrow
day 16
guardians measured in months
day 15
becoming conscious is remembering through time -through generations of being that manifested so that you are who you are in this precise moment
the longer you go the more you remember- the choice comes from how to remember most truthfully.
the past never changes, but our perception of it does.
this has happened before
day 14
Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
I just had a dream I met jordan peterson. he was cold and distant towards me, despite my knowing that if I actually met him, it would be at least neutral and at most engaging. i was watching his latest lecture on the psychological significance of the bible as I took a nap and had the dream. he was talking about noah and the flood.
last night i had another dream where i met someone from woke reality from my past who had been very distant and cold towards me more often than not, but in the dream we were very close and it felt real and warm and it was my birthday and I lived with a demented middle american family. I was being saved by this person who never actually did so. it was the manifestation of my idealized version of reality. it was interesting.
last night before i went to bed I was a little drunk and took a melatonin and told myself, "i want to dream"